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“This is what the past is for! Every experience God gives us, every person He puts in our lives is the perfect preparation for the future that only He can see.”
(Corrie Ten Boom)
It all began in 2004, when my husband suggested I start an online journal with updates about our children (rather than fill up people’s inboxes with novel length emails…yes I was one of those mothers *lol*). Being an avid journaller already, the idea appealed. I was at the time pregnant with my second child. The timing was perfect.
But…it turned out to be quite a challenge. Journaling for me is more therapeutic than anything else. I write my thoughts, dreams, feelings and even prayers to God. After a while, writing regular accounts of our activities started to get a little tedious. Plus I was worried that the further along I progressed with this blogging thing, the harder it would be to keep my private musings (there was quite a bit of intense stuff going on with some extended family members at the time) from seeping into my posts.
Sharing the inmost thoughts of my heart with my family and friends? Um, that was a little too personal for comfort!! So I started a second (anonymous) blog in which I could bare my soul to total strangers. No, the irony of that hasn’t escaped me ;)
This is that blog. Well, not this one exactly. That blog was called The Pharisee’s Daughter (the title alone should give you some indication of my inner churning). I wrote there daily for a few months, then after it had served its purpose, I shut it down and created another blog I named Outlook.
Outlook was a lot lighter in its tone and content. It was also the blog where I began to connect with other like-minded women. I wrote there for about two years, fumbling about with random topics. Then finally, in 2007 I found my blogging groove and it all just fell into place.
I became “the girl with a ‘fro” and moved my blog to this new location.
At the end of 2010 I decided to hit pause on it all. I was physically exhausted (I’d recently had my 5th child), mentally and emotionally exhausted (due to the intense stuff STILL going on with my extended family), and spiritually hungry for more of God.
As much as I had thoroughly enjoyed the online blogging community I’d become a part of, I found it was distracting me from what I truly wanted (and needed) at that time. I needed to pull away from the noise, and just ‘be still’.
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It’s been 16 years since I wrote my first blog post. The young wife and mother desperately trying to ‘work it all out’ through online journaling has grown older, and with the passing years has found much peace to replace the turmoil.
It’s been a long journey to get to this place of peace, but oh it’s been worth it!